Was that happiness today? Was it, really? I don't know. All I know is that I haven't felt this way in a long time. So... It's a good thing, I suppose?
"Everything ends somewhere. The only thing certain is that things will always end in one way or another. That destination's very clear. But it also isn't what matters. It's the journey you share that makes it meaningful. Loving and losing is better than nothing at all."
I liked talking to you today, I don't know why it's comfortable. Okay, maybe a little awkward at first, but with time, it's more comfortable, more things to talk about. Felt like how I could always just talk about anything to her. Maybe not to that extent, but still. And something you said caught me off guard today. That my thoughts are always about why and who, and never about what. Well, I guess I do know what I want in life, I do know what I want to do and what I have to do. Thanks, for helping me understand more about myself today.
I finished reading happiness sold seperately today. It helped me a lot. Through the course of this whole period. It's helped me realize that you don't have to hold onto something just cause you love, but you can still love and let go. Let go so that both parties can be happier. It doesn't mean both parties don't love. But there's no point hanging on for the sake of love, if it makes both unhappy. I'll always be able to look back now and say you were the best friend I could ever have, and now nothing can destroy it. I know I never said this, I'm happy things turned out this way. It's taught me a lot, way more than I think I could have ever learnt anywhere else. I still love you, although you don't think so. And I really am praying and hoping you don't lose yourself and get into the wrong company, but it's time to let you go. To let you go and make your mistakes, to grow and learn from them. And hopefully, you still remain as beautiful as you were before. If you fall too deep, I hope somewhere inside you know I'll always be willing to pull you out, you just need to call for me.
Reading my letters to you, I realized how much I've changed. How I'll never ever say all those things again. I realized how much I've changed, how much more cold on the outside I've become. How I'll never let people see through me and see how I actually really feel. I've changed, but in this aspect, I don't think it's for the better.
