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1. Sketch TC, TVC, TFC
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3. State and explain 2 internal EOS and 1 external EOYS for cny stall

Oh man, damn a lot -.-

It's been a long time, since I cried in a toilet in school. Just ran away from everyone cause I felt the tears building up in my eyes. Went to the toilet, sat, cried, just cried for a good 3 minutes and told myself to stop. I don't know how I'm feeling right now, or why I'm feeling this way. And sometimes it hurts even more to know that no one knows your pain, that everyone's caught up with their own and you're busy being there for them and your pain's just overlooked. I went back to class smiling and laughing cause really, I didn't want them to ask or anything. I'm tired, and I'm sad. Yes, I think that's it. I'm sad.

Maybe finally, I'm feeling what I should have felt a long time ago.

I trust You, I still trust You. If You're testing my faith now, I promise You, I'm not letting You down.

By monday

GP file
Complex 10b tutorial
Chem tutorial
Physics tutorial
Article review
Vectors remedial work

I think that's it? I think.

And my stupid nose is acting up again. Fever coming along too. Sheesh -.-

Thanks. Fine, I'll stop. Whatever. Just stay away from me.

Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has its sugar and cream

Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me

Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me

We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby

I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you

But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk

You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same

You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman (Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (Hey)
And think that everything's okay (Don't let me down, don't you let me down)
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human, yeah)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token (Ooh, ooh) of love from you to me

Oh, baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me (Oh, no)

If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are
Everybody sing along with me

Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me, oh, ho, ho

Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I need love
I need just your love

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down (You can let down)
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I'm not your superwoman



Said exactly how I feel, exactly.

"I wish i was a little kid again. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to clean up my messes and remind me what’s right from wrong. I want to be awed at, even if what I’m doing isn’t that cute. I want to be yelled at before i make the same mistakes again and I want to be held in someone else’s arms while I cry my heart out."

This's for you. :)

Cheer up. I know you're hurt and wounded and sad and all. But not everyone in life's going to betray you, not everyone in life's going to walk in and out without a thought. Not everyone's going to. And you can't stop giving people a chance, just cause you're hurt now. Cause then you'll only prove yourself right- That everyone won't stay. Cheer up alright. You know I'll always be here.

Too tired to give a shit. Too sick to try.

"Last Flight Out"

I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I'm afraid that
You will leave
As my secrets
Have been revealed
In my dreams
You'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more

Thanks ♥

I hope all this rubbishy tension stops. Or maybe it's just me. I don't know why I'm acting like that, I'm sorry. I know you're trying really hard. I'm sorry. I just am in this.. leave me alone mood. You know what I mean. Maybe you were too busy and just too much happened and. Yeh. I wish sometimes that I wasn't like that too. We're both damn sensitive and I think that makes everything even harder to clear. I'm trying, actually. I'm sorry if it isn't good enough. Haha, I'm actually crying while typing this. You're a really good friend. And I've had enough of losing people and I don't wanna lose you and.... but it's just me. And this self protecting mechanism thing. Cause truthfully, it hurt when you weren't there. And. That's when I realized you could actually hurt me. And I'm putting myself out on that line again, when.. I don't even know how to deal with this anymore. Thanks, for not giving up on me. I just never know how to put all this feelings and thoughts into words. So this's my attempt to with my lousy english. And I hope you understand how thankful I am, and that I don't mean to be this way and I'm sorry.

I'm glad you're happy now.
Looking back, I think that's all I ever wanted. :)

Love you, babe. I know you won't ever look back anymore. Which is good. I wish you happiness, always :)

But I never told you what I should have said. No I never told you, I just held it in.

Omg, damn a lot of homework I realized....

Econs essay, physics paper corrections, econs tutorial, math remedial work, GP article essay, chem tutorial. Wthhhhhhh............

Need to study for chem and econs test :( AND COMPRE ON MONDAY, omg.

Next week is going to be horror. Oh.... and my chem.... is officially dead. HAHAHA, but I can't let it die cause I need it for the course I want. Wth.... this sucks.

I realized there are a lot of dots and I'm talking to myself. lol.

Sos.

You say I'm not, I feel like I am. I don't wanna. I'm scared. But there's... so much I can do. I'm just too tired to do it. And I don't wna fight for sth I'm gna lose.

Family quarrels are bitter things. They don't go according to any rules. They're not like aches or wounds, they're more like splits in the skin that won't heal because there's not enough material.

If I cry tomorrow, no one would understand why. Everyone thinks it's fine, and it's okay, and it's just a small thing.. but you know, really, it isn't. It's not, it's spinning out of control. And... I'm scared cause I can see where it's all going towards.

And I've run out of things I can do to try to keep us together. Family. Together. There's only so much I can do.

I can finally say, I'm happy for you.

I'm kinda tired. :(

But at least I'm not sad, I guess. :)

Stop quarelling please.

I don't even feel like coming home anymore. Enough, please? It's getting hard to just sit behind in the car hearing the way you two fight. Enough. I've really had enough.