I don't know why, today's just a rather screwed up day. I feel like crying right now, but I don't think I'm up to another crying night. It's too much energy, too much emotional strength which I don't have right now. I just wish you had enough time for me, sometimes, I just wonder why I'm always the one being pushed aside and just, everything else has priority over me. I'm feeling so bloody lousy today.

I'm tired of fighting for you. I'm tired of..... everything. I just wanna have a little say, a little priority. Sometimes, I wonder, if even that, is too much to ask for. But I guess, that's life. This is life.

And to you, I'm sorry. Someday, you'll understand why.