We all get lost once in a while.

Today was study day. 3 hours of math in the morning fried my brain. Really, it fried my brain cells, now I think I have none left. ): Consultations work, when I'm not asking questions. I don't like asking questions, I'm shy. (: HAHA.

There comes a point in time when you stop letting the anger get to you, stop letting the hurt get to you. I realized, when you take so much of hurt and anger, you become more and more numb. Slowly you stop expecting, slowly you stop hoping, slowly you stop wishing. And with those expectations, hopes and wishes gone, you hurt less. You stop hurting. Maybe that's why they same time heals. Maybe it doesn't heal you, it just allows you time to get used to it. Maybe it just allows you time to accept things you couldn't before. Time, it's still the magic to everything. I'm sorry, I just don't want to be upset over us anymore.

To put up a front so strong, no one can see through. To smile and laugh so genuinely, that you fool even yourself. To tell yourself you're fine, to lie and deceive, that even with time, you start to believe you are fine. Time, look, time can do everything.

Sometimes, in the midst of protecting your heart, protecting yourself, you lose touch with your emotions. And when you look back, you wonder, where did I go.

"Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect her to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you're yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn't exactly match up with all your plans. But that's the thing. Love isn't a plan. It doesn't have a certain beginning & it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it."