What do you do when the one thing that keeps you alive is killing you slowly?

It feels like a non-stop rain of the heart.

I took that photo! Pretty right! :D Went for ILP this morning, thank goodness I was feeling better already. Nothing much to say about the morning, just that our table seemed more like a picnic rather than a project work, cause there was so much food!! Didn't get anything done, just ended up distributing work and going back home. (:

Hope, yes, I'll cling onto it.

Went to study after that at macs! The rain got to me so much, felt so sleepy. ): Finished my GP work for the week. Did a little of physics. I'm going to get physics tuition yay! :D I need it, if not I think I'm going to fail. ): 

Something random I typed into my phone when I looked at the rain. 

When everything comes to a haul, and you find yourself lost and alone away from the only one you ever truly needed and loved with your whole heart, you know no emotions. No betrayal, no pain, no hurt. Everything just comes to a stop and nothing matters anymore. You tell yourself you'll be alright and you tell yourself  that things will get better but inside, whatever's left of your heart, you know it's not going to be okay even if things get better. Nothing is going to be okay ever again. Because you've given a part of your heart away and you're never getting it back again. Every time you love someone, truly love someone, you lose a part of yourself when you lose that one. No, things aren't ever going to be okay, they never are. Cause I gave you my whole heart.

I'm so bored. I want ice cream. ): I want to go for bone marrow donation! Yesssss.

You thought of me above all, and I will have faith. You died, so I would live, and I will. Thank you, Father.