"It doesn’t matter to me if you understand. Don’t just hear me out- listen to me. Don’t speak- just listen. Just listen and respect my feelings. You don’t have to understand. I don’t give a flying fuck if you understand or not. Just respect what I’m telling you and respect how I’m feeling. Respect the fact that I am actually telling you the truth. I don’t tell the truth to just anyone. I don’t go out of my way to tell people the truth. Usually, I don’t bother explaining. But I care and I want to… so I will. So please take that into consideration before going off the handle and making me feel more awful than I already do. All I know is that I have to do what’s best for me. Even if that means letting some people down."

I don't know how to do what's best for me. :(