The book's damn good. I don't wanna put it down. Bittersweet, I guess she used the right word :)

Anyway, it's hard not to be sad about it, but I guess I've gotta accept it and just live. I'm not moving on I think, not yet. Some part of me still hopes, I think. And maybe if I hope hard enough it'll come true. Maybe, hopefully. Who knows. I think I've been pushing it away. For now.

They didn't let me take the test today and I cried for an hour. HAHA. Cool right. Like everything's such a mess right now. Even when they could just log into ISP to get my photo ID, ISP had to crash. I was like so amused. And Ho LY had to see me in the staff room and scold me -.- Hahaha. I guess it was good. I could just cry and didn't have to stop cause no one was waiting for me, nor would anyone be looking for me. So yeh :) Felt much better.

I miss you, omg. I keep realizing everyday how much I miss you, and. I've been trying to push it away but it's not working. I need to find something else that works, lol.