Okay, so now I'm a big mess. Positive self talk helps, right?

I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay.

I won't hate you. This pain will go away soon. I won't hate you. You're my best friend and I won't hate you. I won't hate you no matter how painful this is. I won't hate you because I love you. I won't hate you I won't hate you I won't hate you. I need to stick by you. I need to understand. I need to be okay so you won't feel like I'm playing games with you. I'm not bringing you on guilt trips, so I've got to be okay. I won't hate you, I won't hate you, I won't hate you. I'm still going to love you. I'm still going to love you. I'm going to be okay.

Nel, I kinda wish you were here right now.