I think I've become so afraid of becoming a burden. I've become so afraid that if I ask for too much or take too much or just... seem like I pull people back, that I'll start losing them. So please, don't do things for me, don't. I don't want there to be any reason for you to one day turn around and say that it's my fault, that I held you back. I think I can't hear that anymore, I really can't. Just don't wanna become someone who tires anyone anymore. Just, don't wanna see anyone leave anymore.

Omg, I'm going to cry -.-

I'd rather keep it all in, don't show it, be strong and happy, and laugh it all off. Be there, comfort, love, than to break down and have others worry and try and tire them. I'd rather..... just keep all of them with me, even if it meant I kept all my sadness in. Because really, I think someone leaving again, would just be the worst thing ever. I don't think my heart can take it. It can take sadness and hurt, but I really don't think it can take another goodbye.