既然爱上了又为何不付出

Haven't been blogging much cause my laptop charger died ): Now I can only use this stupid desktop which isn't of much convinience so less blog posts. Roarrr, I need to go buy new charger, it'll be damn expensive la!! ):

I think I hate studying now. It's like so damn sianxzxzx. ): I look at work and I get a headache. -.- Sucks shit. I'm bored, I want my laptop to automatically charge on it's on. ): Bahhhh.

Okay this post is stupid. It's updating for the sake of updating if you can't already tell......... Oh damn, there's physics tomorrow. 3 hours, goodnight during those 3 hours! HA. Gay, I need to get back to math ):

Heal my heart and make it clean,

Open up my eyes to the things unseen.

Show me how to love like You have loved me.

Break my heart for what breaks Yours,

Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause.

As I walk from earth into eternity.

What am I good at. I'm only special in Your eyes. I look at myself, I look around me. I see thousands of people moving at such fast speed, leaving me behind. I look at myself and see how inferior I am to so many others. I ask myself what I'm good at, nothing. I ask myself what I can excel in, nothing. I ask myself what I actually do that can shine and for once, I can better than others, nothing. I ask myself what results have I seen from the things I've put efforts into, nothing. I ask myself what I'm good in, I ask myself how I'm special. I can't think of anything. But I know, I know, in Your eyes I am special. In Your eyes, I'm one special kid. Even if I don't see it, even if I never see it, I know I'm special to You. It's okay if I get left behind, because I know You're right here by my side. I'm not special, I'm not good at anything, I'm no different from anyone else, I'm plain, I'm me. But I know to You, I'm Yours. In You, I find comfort. <3